Korean drama; Addicted!!!

Korean drama is now my trend of life.

Everyday I wake up,

and after breakfast,

I'll rush to the computer and watch

Korean drama;

I think I'm addicted to it.

What I love about Korean drama.

Well, I don't watch Chinese drama,

neither Japanese drama,

but only Korean drama.

And I got a good hunch I can win this debate.

Well, Korean drama, first,

has awesome story plotting.

It differs in genres.

They can have romance, and at the same time,

comedy, plus some family issues, 

or just a simple melodrama will do the trick.

I just love getting into the Korean drama,

where they just bring your emotions to a roller coaster.

You'll be serious on some matter,

get angry on some issues that doesn't suit you,

and then you'll be half way laughing,

and there's when you will have tears all over.

You can feel pitiful, and at the same time,

you will have the feeling of just hugging someone.

Bursting in laughter and sometimes even curse that fellow;

all of these are found in just a single Korean drama.

I just love being swing all around with emotions.

*

Next, the actors, actress and the settings are 

nearly heavenly-like perfect.

They are beautiful,

stunning look with great body,

handsome and mesmerizing,

not to mention funny and ugly,

and sometimes, brought out what's reality,

the diversity of humans.

Not to mention that Korean places are so so so

beautiful.

The art works of God in Korea definitely is like 

paradise.

Wow, God really spent more time in Korea, eh?

Just the beach, the landscape, the houses,

the weather, the hills and the rivers,

oh my goodness!

I just love staying there, if I could.

And for now, to satisfy my thirst of being in that paradise,

watching Korean drama is all to do the trick.

*

The culture itself, Korean culture.

I have watched quite a numbers of Korean drama,

and one of the most enjoyable part of Korean drama,

is when they portrait out the Korean culture.

For example,

they treasure the old very well,

and the respect for the elderly is very much saluted.

I say, wherever they go,

the respect and the manners is the top!

In their culture, good manners indulge in every way

of the way of living as a Korean.

And very much to agree, that I love that.

It's to them, like a common courtesy.

I am very impress every time,

without failing, when the huge influence of the

good manners

are in the Korean culture.

Listing to Korean language also intrigues me

as I have very much interest in language.

For now, I know only English,

Mandarin (Chinese) and Bahasa Malaysia (my national language).

And as Korean language,

maybe it will soon be my forth mother tongue,

maybe after or before I master Japanese.

*

Well, there's so much to brag about

watching Korean drama.

And only those K-drama fans will agree with me,

100% and very true,

that if you haven't watch it,

you certainly have no right to argue about it.

Take it,

like an ecstasy,

you'll get addicted to it,

and trust me,

they are good.

Well, I don't want to talk too much.

Heading back to my Korean drama,

and I think I'm having fever of it already!

Hahahah! 

People, enjoy your day!

To all Korean drama fans,

Annyeonghaseyo!!!

Ciao!

 

 

Life's too short!

Life                                  

is                        

too              

short!!!

Reading back my stories

just a few days ago

makes me think.

What this girl wrote,

is like a thunder bolt

hitting me,

as if it was saying,'

" Cut it off, man,

LIVE YOUR LIFE

and 

STOP COMPLAINING!!!"

Ouch? That hurt.

I mean, it's true.

I was doing nothing

but complaining.

Pointing fingers at God

or the unknown future

or just something I don't have

is not the right thing to do

at this moment.

 ***

Life is definitely too short.

You do see it, don't you?

I mean, let's see.

!0 years ago, I was still in primary school.

Then I moved to my new house.

5 years ago, I got into high school.

And just last year, I just finished

my 11 years of school days.

I mean, just look at it!

In a blink of an eye,

time just passed us.

The breeze of time,

just kissed my cheek,

and as it touched by,

it said Good-bye.

How poignant, isn't?

Life is just too short.

**

If you're lucky, you'll live to 70.

If you're truly blessed, maybe 90.

If you eat super healthy, maybe 100.

That, to me, is the maximum;

since my great-grandma lived to 100,

I really limit human to 100.

Anyway, some just passed away before 70.

There's no guarantee.

So, if you observe carefully,

that days we lived by,

are like seconds, 

just simply ticking itself away.

That's why,

procrastination is not the way of living.

Heck you, procrastinates!

*

Life is simply too short to be sitting down

miserably.

We must be happy all the time.

Satisfy is the only answer.

Tell me which rich man who never satisfy is happy?

I tell you,

even the beggars will be more happy

to be just eating scraps by the roadside,

if they are satisfy that they have food to eat,

compared to filthy rich fat man who never learns

the meaning of satisfaction.

SO, what's the point of complaining?

Live your life with gladness.

Enjoy it while you may.

Like they say, 

Live it to the fullest.

Go after your dreams.

Fulfill your destiny.

Reach your goals.

And be sure,

that after living this short life,

you'll know where is your destination

as you live life after death.

All I can say,

is that Jesus is the Life.

Believe in Him,

and you'll not only have the fullest life on earth,

but you'll be sure to live in the life after death.

Dear friends,

Life's too short!

I don't care how you live it,

but 

JUST LIVE WELL!

=D

 

At the dinner table...

Have you ever 

taken your dinner in a big crowd?

Whom all of the people

around you are your

blood-related 

brothers,

sisters,

uncles,

aunts,

Mum,

Dad,

cousins,

nephews,

Grandpa,

Grandma,

etc etc etc etc.

Well, I only got a chance

whenever I go back to my relatives

who are staying all across the South China Sea.

Yes. Living in the Peninsular of Malaysia,

and having paternal relatives who are

all in the other island of Borneo,

makes visiting harder.

I won't choose to swim there,

nor sitting a boat there.

Car can't bring you across the sea,

so the only choice is the air.

Funny to say,

but...

I have been in an aeroplane

more than in a train or bus.

 

Before economics became this kind of shit,

Mum and Dad were able to bring the family of four

to visit Grandpa and Grandma.

But the world is getting harder.

And conditions in the family

wasn't able to win the race with the world,

so...

we got to cut cost,

and only two were able to return.

Yeap, soon, I'll be visiting them.

Soon.

And that's only with my Dad.

Sad that Mum and Sis can't tag along.

We just don't have the budget!

Sad right?

That's why,

I promise myself

to work harder in life,

so all these financial kind of problems

will not exist anymore in my generations.

Then I might be able to pay my love to Mum and Dad

more abundantly. You say?

 **

Recently, I am watching many dramas.

And I am always excited when the scene

of a family dinner is going on.

I mean,

there's so many of them around the dinner table!

And everyone of them got a story.

So, if you want to talk, you have to talk!

Just imagine!

The atmosphere,

the surrounding,

the noise,

the chatters.

 

Well, I may have to

only dream of it.

As my family only have four of us,

this another type of experience

will always be in my imaginations.

And may my imaginations rule

and lest reality over-power it.

 *

As I sit at the dinner table,

I slowly,

gradually,

heard laughter

and someone

calling my name.

''Shoon..."

 

 

 

 

 

We are beautiful

***

One snap of the shutter,

and there it was...

one beautiful moment

captured in time 

for eternity.

The late summer sun reflected

in the breaking wave

made the water look like

liquid of gold 

splashing onto the shore.

If my friend had not been there 

with his camera,

the wave would have gone

unnoticed,

like so many others that have come and gone,

seen only by God.

Who can imagine how many waves

the sea has sent rolling onto the shoreline?

Yet each one is unique.

As seen in every wave,

God makes extravagant beauty

out of seemingly mundane things.

Using the water and air,

He makes wondrous works of art.

We enjoy His gallery in skies above and 

on earth and sea below.

Yet,

most of earth's beauty remains 

invisible to us;

It is seen only by God.

God uses another gallery to display

His glory

-- HUMANS

We too are made out of something

ordinary; the dust.

Yet to us,

God added an 

extraordinary ingredient

-- His very own breath.

Like waves of the sea

and flowers of  the field, 

our lives are brief

and seen by few.

Yet each one is a beautiful moment

created by God Himself,

to say to the world,

"Behold, your God!"

whose Word will last forever...

--DailyBread

**

Only one life, so live it well,

and keep your candle trimmed and bright;

eternity, not time, will tell,

the radius of  that candle's light. 

-- Miller

*

 During these days,

where I sit at home,

not doing anything,

but rather,

did something I don't really do,

THINKING.

Surprisingly,

I found out that we, 

are just mere humans.

Like it or not,

believe it or not,

seriously,

there is nothing we could do.

And I felt that,

very quite useless.

Not losing the ability to do something,

but losing the ability to satisfy myself.

And that includes me,

searching for the real me,

so I will have a future that I've always dream of.

And to come to think of it,

how useless and how miserable we are,

God still treasure us,

every single one of us.

And I am just glad,

because although I may not know

what to do with myself,

or my future is unknown,

for sure I know that God loves me,

and that He loves me like 

Father loves His son.

A father wouldn't hurt a son,

would he?

So, rest assured,

I say to myself,

that for whatever things turn out to be,

it is planned

and it is 

good.

 

If only...

Climbing up to the unknown...

Reaching up to my dreams...

The dreams that seem impossible

ultimately impossible

for now...

And all day long,

IF. IF. IF. IF. IF.

would be the only

comforting word I could use.

If only I have a million dollars right now.

If only I have the best result in the state.

If only I have the fame of a famous star.

If only I have a mirror that shows the future...

If only...

The future is full of 

IFs

and that's what make out future so...

intriguing.

After graduating from highschool

and after freedom from the army camp,

I realize I'm in a much devastating state than ever.

The difficulties I face in school,

and the horror in my army camp,

were no match to this moment right now.

And do you know what moment it is right now?

The moment of not knowing

what to do,

where to go,

and what's my next move...

It's like a ship,

lost in midst of the ocean.

It's like a man on a camel,

lost in the dessert without direction.

It's like an astronaut, 

losing his way back to earth.

I'm too free.

And that is scary.

As scary as losing the purpose of living...

**

I do not wish for

TOTAL FREEDOM

Well, I believe that this moment,

is just a chapter of my life,

that I have to get on with it.

And thus,

learning that one needs to be 

engage to something

or someone

or somehow anything

'cause not doing anything

is rather useless;

better dead than being a rubbish, eh?

*

 If only...

Don't give up!

''For those whom did well in SPM, 

Congratulations and Well Done.

For those whom did not 

– never ever consider the possibility of failure, 

as long as you persist, 

you will
be successful too. 

As long as you all keep pushing,

 keep persisting, 

you will definitely achieve your ambition in life.''

...Said one of my teacher that I respect very much.

Pn. Sunita.

She was my tuition teacher,

and she taught me Chemistry.

Well, to be honest,

I hate Chemistry, once upon a time.

Until I met her,

the Chemistry's wife.

She made Chemistry alive,

telling me the truth behind all 

those funny, weird looking things in Chemistry.

The meaning of man driving into Chemistry so much!

I mean, who would have thought that in this world,

nearly EVERYTHING is of Chemistry.

I just fall in love with Chemistry

when Chemistry's wife

taught me Chemistry.

***

I wasn't sure if I should be happy

proud and glad 

of my SPM result.

I mean, there's a little pinch of

disappointment in my SPM result.

Yet, I am still thankful

of what I got.

So, okay, I did quite well,

and yes, I received many 

Congratulations.

But on the other hand,

I considered myself

not doing well,

but,

her words of advice to all of us,

is to persist,

and to not consider our failure.

Yes, just step over the failure,

and move forward

towards victory.

**

She said,  keep on pushing,

keep on persisting,

and we will achieve our ambition in life.

Well, that's somehow similar to Jesus' parable.

Jesus Christ said that if we are persistant,

and even at midnight,

you have no food,

but you persistently knocking the door

of your neighbour just for a loaf of bread,

somehow, your neighbour will give in,

all because you ask without ceasing.

And that's what we should apply in our life.

Jesus Christ say,

Ask, and you shall be given;

Seek, and you shall find;

Knock, and the door shall be open unto you.

Isn't it amazing?

Not in ambition wise,

but in salvation too,

that if we bravely ask for forgiveness,

Jesus will definitely forgive you.

And He will bless you with many good things,

all because we are not giving up.

*

Dear friends outside there,

 heck those troubles,

heck those difficulties.

'Cause that's how life is.

But bear in mind,

that whoever is stronger, wins.

So, you make sure you stand on Jesus' shoulder,

and you're the strongest in front of all your enemies.

Don't give up!

At the Crossroads

Cross roads.

The place where I am standing.

If only life's a 2-way T-junction.

Not right, then left.

Not left, then right.

But no.

Not with life.

There isn't any right or left,

neither a right or wrong.

It all lies in your decision.

To go or not to go.

That's all.

But in the end,

you just have to go too.

No matter what.

Life has to go on.

And that's when you are forced to make

the decision.

It's rather like somebody pushing you

to a cliff,

and it is at that time at that minute,

you must say

Yes or No.

**

After a whole set of 11 years of study plan

it is finally time for me to make my story.

It is time to step out my own journey.

Alone and me myself.

Writing down a new chapter

on my own.

Walking down the road

on my own.

Making decisions

on my own.

Haha, I sound like a pagan.

But, at this time,

I am really feeling alone.

Where is my guide?

Where is my light?

Where is my way?

Where is WHERE?

**

It's an irony that I have been a Christian for so long

yet

I don't see any thing that is a sign from the Lord.

Maybe, I didn't look right.

I didn't look tight.

My faith is build up when I was in army camp.

And now,

a stumbbling stone

to put shadows of doubt into my life.

"IS THERE REALLY JESUS?"

Yes, there is a Jesus Christ who cares.

And at this point of my life,

I have no choice.

I am at the crossroads.

Thousands and thousands of options,

routes for me to choose on.

Which is the right one?

All I have to do is to commit.

To give up my life to Jesus.

And telling Him,

"I really need You in my life

to guide me now,

to show me the way,

and to give me the blueprint of my life,

because you're my maker

and my creater,

and my God

who is All-knowing"

Well, I would rather surrender to a higher authority

to guide through my life.

Wait, that does not mean I am not rulling my life.

I am rulling my life.

Just that I am rulling my own life with His plan.

Same as a pilot driving a plan with the blueprint of route set.

I want a fruitful life,

and I do not want to mess up my life.

'Cause you only got this chance of living.

There won't be any second chance after you die,

will you?

And that's why,

time is power.

Making the right decision

at the right time,

and living your life

at the fullest,

knowing that time will not return,

is the BEST decision man can make.

As for me,

I want to plan my life,

with the ones who gave me life.

Cause He knows me best.

Jesus Christ,

wherever you are,

I am ready to listen to you.

I need your guide,

to live to the fullest!

**
At the crossroads,

when you're in despair,

all you can do

is to look into the sky,

raising up your two hands into the heavens

and ask for help.

*



Hang Out

 

"Let's Hang Out!"

And so we did.

Awesome time we had,

in a Malaysian mamak stall.

That's how teens in Malaysia does.

We call, 

we come out,

we chat,

and we have a light dinner.

Maybe plus supper.

But what's important

is the get-to-gather part.

Heck the roti canai, or the teh tarik,

'cause when friends come together,

the last thing I want to think about is food.

It's been awhile since our last reunion 

which had taken place last year.

About 4 to 5 months ago, I suppose.

And 77 days in the army camp,

made my friends and I grew fonder of each other.

Y'know, distance make a heart grow fonder.

Anyway, I call them out.

Casually asking them out for some chat

and some more chat 

that Saturday evening.

I was there, first, as usual.

Then came along my friends.

The girls took the longest time,

but in the end, it was a guy who came latest.

Well, all of us have,

little but much commitment.

Some started college life.

Some are just getting started.

Some are currently have a part time job.

And some slackers, namely me,

were slaking at home,

not doing anything.

Seriously, when I saw all of them having something to do,

I felt guilty.

I mean, what the hell, man!

Everyone is on something somehow,

and I am here, 

ain't doing anything!!

Such a bloody waste of time,

energy and whatnots.

I didn't know a crowd would actually turned out.

Cool enough when you were chatting and someone

just showed up and you get them in to join.

It was a really surprising and happy moment

to meet 

all my awesome friends.

I even got to meet someone

that I haven't been able to meet him,

for 5 years! 

That's very very exciting and,

really, all I did was starring at him.

Wondering, wow, 

times really do past so fast!

So, we did talked a lot.

I talked a lot.

So fast and so very much.

Even my tea wouldn't even

contain the amount of saliva I talked off.

And oh my, did I talk!

For once, I love my life again.

I love my past.

I love my friends,

and even how great I become,

I never will disown all my wonderful friends.

No they are not superstars,

nor they are millionaires.

But each one of them,

is like a treasure to me.

A unique treasure that embedded 

into my little unknown life

that adorns it so beautifully,

that one day,

I promise myself,

I will make my life known,

and all of my wacky-doodle friends

will be able to laugh and smile with me

in a awesome time we are going to enjoy.

Oh, how I wish that day would come.

But till then,

I cherish all these golden moments we have.

Though it may be simple,

but sometimes simple is complete

and simple is nice.

I would not want to forget those who turned out.

We did not have time to snatch a Say Cheese snap,

but I am sure enough, 

that in each of us that very evening,

we were smiling away in our dreams,

thinking how great times we had

just now in the crowded,

noisy, and quite uncomfortable mamak stall.

Love you my friends,

 Miss YT, Miss EVy, Miss JJ, Miss C Min, Miss Ky, Miss Mq,

Mister U Gene, Mister Gan, Mister Keong S,

Mister KTK with his adorable sister,

Mister THomas, Mister YYih.

May we have a blessed future ahead!

 

Seeking

What do I seek?

MY FUTURE

* * * * * * *

I am tired of waiting.

I am sick of loneliness.

I need attention.

I need guidance.

I need my future.

I need a right decision.

I need to make my choice.

What do I seek?

???

Life is only starting to begin.

Just right after my graduation,

and my 3 months in army camp,

I am finally in the air.

Free to do anything.

Free to fly.

Free to online.

Free to sing.

Free to play.

And too much freedom,

makes me lost in my freedom.

Now, I seek for an escape route.

Back to the life I desire.

And for that, decisions have to be make.

Have to deal with this like an adult.

Hello, it's the future we are dealing with.

I am burden.

For the first time,

I do not know where to go.

What to do.

How to do.

When to go.

Independent have a price to pay.

Am I able to pay it?

*

I really really is in a dillemma.

Which should I choose?

Being a famous doctor,

or an architect,

or just a teacher of language,

or perhaps a musician?

None lies in 100% confirmation.

None makes me 100% confidence.

All wanted me, and none didn't want me.

I feel silly, of myself.

Not knowing myself better.

Even a simple kindergarten question,

'' What is your ambition?''

I can't really answer that with all my heart.

The bigger I am, the more doubts,

questions, worries, pains, troubles.

What do I seek?

I seek for the future.

I seek for solution.

I seek for decision.

I seek for answers.

I seek for confirmation.

I seek me.

 

Rain in NS Wetlands Camp

Drops of blessings, from the highest heaven,

brings hope, and comfort, to earth below.

In times, it get bigger and bigger.

Sometimes, it is just a drop or two.

But the most exciting one, is still those,

that never stop, when it starts its game.

It is like a story; 

there's a beginning, 

the conflicts,

the climax,

and there goes the end.

Rain, a life giver,

a new breath, a shock of heavens.

When it rains, it don't just rain.

There's a bonus.

If you're lucky, you'll get some huge breeze.

Then you may have dark sky.

In the midst of coolness, you may get a flash of light.

As fast as lightning, you'll see a lightning. 

And the bride of it, make the girls scream.

Some say, Oh dear, the heavens are angry.

Just rain, if it gets bigger, it's storm.

And many will talk about it.

So you'll never be worry, 

if people get bored about it.

*

As soon as it touch the cheek of the earth,

life emerge from the earth,

just like a miracle.

Frogs hops up and down.

Ants scatters to find dry land.

Children came running into the puddles,

have a mother nature bath.

Sitting in the patio, watching the land,

started filling up with rain waters.

It splatter and splash,

as it gets bigger and heavier.

Not a chance for me to be dry.

Suddenly, a light struck down.

Right in front of me, just like that.

And if you read your science,

you'll close your eyes.

And I said, LET IT BE.

*

Bang! Woosh! Splash!
The music of nature.

No musicians, are able to create 

nature music

as original as nature itself.

Here I am, sitting in front of the artist itself.

Look closer, and you'll find, 

beauty in it.

Many don't see it. 

No one take notice of it.

Full attention isn't given to it.

You do not find a famous man recording rain,

do you?

No, it is beauty beyond common,

and to man, it is too common.

A beauty that needs quietness

to look at.

Bang! There goes the climax.

Nature gave its last call, 

and the show is over.

That's all for today.

It is finish.

Well, the show might be over,

but the blessing is taste.

And oh how sweet indeed it is.

The sunshine took over.

But still, the cool air float around us,

giving us the best day ever.

A gift from heaven.

And this is just a part of heaven.

And when it started to wave good-bye,

only then,

people realize, that it had just

rained beautifully...

 

Back HOME

After 77 days, 

that's 11 weeks,

I finally got the chance

to step 

OUT

of the camp,

heading back to where I long to go.

 

HOME

 

It was at the year of 2011,

the month of December,

I received a letter.

"Congratulations! You are chosen to undergo the 

Malaysian National Service a.k.a.

Program Latihan Khidmat Negara (PLKN)

from 1.1.12 to 17.3.12"

**

I was SHOCKED!!!

Well, not on the happy side.

I didn't want to go.

I rejected.

I refused.

But somehow, God said

GO

 And thus, I went.

 

And I thank God because He told me to GO.

~~~~

In camp, so many things happened.

But right now, I just want to share with all my friends,

about my feeling of coming home.

 I really really do not know how you people feel

about being far away, and leaving home for a long time,

not meeting, talking, shouting, yelling, laughing, eating,

together with your family;

because I never left home for a long time.

 

BUT NOW I KNOW.

And it's GOOD to be back.

 

As I began to pack, my heart is in joy.

The more I pack, the happier I was.

And when I got to pull my luggage out,

my feet were leaping in joy.

As the Commander signed my passing out certificate,

my smile displayed so widely on my face,

that I couldn't even smile.

It was too awesome,

so awesome,

very awesome,

to go home.

***

HOME

I just thank God I'm there.