At the Crossroads

Cross roads.

The place where I am standing.

If only life's a 2-way T-junction.

Not right, then left.

Not left, then right.

But no.

Not with life.

There isn't any right or left,

neither a right or wrong.

It all lies in your decision.

To go or not to go.

That's all.

But in the end,

you just have to go too.

No matter what.

Life has to go on.

And that's when you are forced to make

the decision.

It's rather like somebody pushing you

to a cliff,

and it is at that time at that minute,

you must say

Yes or No.

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After a whole set of 11 years of study plan

it is finally time for me to make my story.

It is time to step out my own journey.

Alone and me myself.

Writing down a new chapter

on my own.

Walking down the road

on my own.

Making decisions

on my own.

Haha, I sound like a pagan.

But, at this time,

I am really feeling alone.

Where is my guide?

Where is my light?

Where is my way?

Where is WHERE?

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It's an irony that I have been a Christian for so long

yet

I don't see any thing that is a sign from the Lord.

Maybe, I didn't look right.

I didn't look tight.

My faith is build up when I was in army camp.

And now,

a stumbbling stone

to put shadows of doubt into my life.

"IS THERE REALLY JESUS?"

Yes, there is a Jesus Christ who cares.

And at this point of my life,

I have no choice.

I am at the crossroads.

Thousands and thousands of options,

routes for me to choose on.

Which is the right one?

All I have to do is to commit.

To give up my life to Jesus.

And telling Him,

"I really need You in my life

to guide me now,

to show me the way,

and to give me the blueprint of my life,

because you're my maker

and my creater,

and my God

who is All-knowing"

Well, I would rather surrender to a higher authority

to guide through my life.

Wait, that does not mean I am not rulling my life.

I am rulling my life.

Just that I am rulling my own life with His plan.

Same as a pilot driving a plan with the blueprint of route set.

I want a fruitful life,

and I do not want to mess up my life.

'Cause you only got this chance of living.

There won't be any second chance after you die,

will you?

And that's why,

time is power.

Making the right decision

at the right time,

and living your life

at the fullest,

knowing that time will not return,

is the BEST decision man can make.

As for me,

I want to plan my life,

with the ones who gave me life.

Cause He knows me best.

Jesus Christ,

wherever you are,

I am ready to listen to you.

I need your guide,

to live to the fullest!

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At the crossroads,

when you're in despair,

all you can do

is to look into the sky,

raising up your two hands into the heavens

and ask for help.

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