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walking back

before i had my Lumia

i was active on blogs.

most of my stories are told

here

i still remember clearly.

it was on the 13th of May 2013

when i first bought my very own

smartphone

a Nokia Lumia 920

(now discontinued)

it was on a Monday.

school holiday i guess,

because Dad took me all the way

to Sunway Pyramid

to purchase my Lumia.

i insisted on a chilli-red cover

and i did not regret it.

mind you, my Dad did not pay a single cent.

after a year of tutoring, i managed to gather up

the amount required.

at the same time,

my friend whom we tutored the same kid

also bought her new smartphone

around that week.

hers was an iPhone 5.

we were best buddies.

and our phones became best buddies.

we never compared each others.

we shared.

i really like iPhone.

but i adore Lumia's simplicity and elegance.

and because nobody was using Nokia

all dominated by Samsung,

i just wanted to be special.

be odd.

since that day onwards,

i left blogspot alone.

until now.

 it did not mean that i lost my voice,

my stories,

my complains

after i got my Lumia.

instead, those laments were shared

with real friends.

real actual human beings

 via all kinds of social apps.

you name it

Facebook, Twitter, Whassap, ...

and the list goes on.

i even started Instagram

where all my photos and pictures are,

and all of them tell bits of my stories.

kinda works like a diary,

just with pictures.

blogging.

writing.

expressing.

it's what i do.

i have a voice.

waiting to be heard.

there are more voices in me.

all closed up.

in a closet.

right in my heart.

i find it hard to even write it down.

i choked every time i tried.

revealing it.

it's just not an option.

yet.

maybe one day.

maybe never.

in 2014, vlogging became viral.

i thought 

why not?

i gave it a try.

but failed miserably.

or maybe, i did not try enough.

but i gave up.

i wanted to vlog

the same reason why i blog.

to express me.

but words work better for me.

at least, for now.

i want to live.

i want to talk.

i want to express how i feel inside.

blogging came back to my mind.

and so,

here i am,

returning to my world.

my blog.

Shoon's stories continues...

*my dearest readers, i apologize

for the sudden disappearance